I’ve actually changed quite a bit in the last two years. The last two years have mainly consisted of my time in law school, and boy does law school change you. Initially, I was more dedicated. I think anytime you start something new you go into it with a fresh mind, and overly eager and determined to do your best. Like most things, as time passes, that zeal slowly fades away and it just becomes something else that you do. The same applies to law school. Now I find myself dragging myself to class…wishing that this thing ends soon, and even though graduation is rapidly approaching, it’s not arriving soon enough. Sometimes I feel like law school sucked out some of my happiness from life…She’s a bitch, and a demanding one at that…never quite satisfied with the amount of time you give her. You devote yourself to her, and the only thanks you get is an order for more of your life. In the last two years, I’ve come to bitterly resent her. I’ll be glad when I’m finally able to break up with her in April.
As a person, I’ve learned to calm the heck down. I don’t overthink things so much anymore. I know how to just go with the flow, and when to keep my mouth shut and my thoughts to myself. Sometimes if I’m bold, I’ll write them down in this journal, making sure that I’m not too harsh in case the words in this confession-book are ever read after I die. The changes to my personality over the last few years have definitely been for the better, though. I don’t get worked up as easily as I used to, and I’m much more happy overall. Law school is the only thing in my life that I truly feel negatively toward, and even then, it’s taught me to appreciate the more important things in life, like family and loved ones and of course, God.
So overall, the last two years have been good to me…shaping me into a more carefree, mature person. (Except when I’m at school. That’s a different story.)