This may not be disgusting to other people, but to me it is. I have a nasty habit of letting insecurity get the best of me sometimes. It’s definitely not something that I’m proud of at all. I would love to be totally comfortable in my skin, but that just doesn’t happen. There are so many things in life that can make you question yourself…make you think twice about who you are. Life is bombarded with media and unrealistic expectations. Everything is a competition. People have unreasonable standards. I get disgusted when I’m insecure because I’m a smart woman…I know that women on magazine covers are photoshopped, and I’ve seen the pictures of these gorgeous celebrities without their makeup, and some of them look worse than I do. Still, it’s hard to stop myself from wishing that I was smaller here, larger there, smoother over there, and the list goes on. If I could have my way, I wouldn’t experience the mental ping pong game of feeling secure one minute and then seeing some 17 year old who looks absolutely gorgeous and who unknowingly makes me feel unhappy with myself.