I’ve been having more and more anxiety lately, sometimes for no reason at all. Its like I’ll be okay one minute, then the next I’m all tears and “woe is me” but I feel like I’m losing it at times. The constant ups and downs are exhausting in all ways possible.

For once I would love to just have a normal day (not that I actually remember what its like to feel normal). I feel like I was able to handle my dark times, but lately they are handling me and starting to take over.

I honestly don’t know how my loved ones manage to put up with me because half of the time I can’t even stand myself. This person that cancer is turning me into is making me so far from recognizable, and I just don’t know what to do with that anymore.