Yesterday I decided that I wanted to have a ladies' night out with my mom and Stacey, a night where we could dress up fancy and get dolled up to enjoy ourselves. While thinking of what we should do, I remembered that my favorite chef Scott Conant (known for his work as a judge on … Continue reading Ladies’ Night at Mora Italian
Sometimes you just have to take a stand for yourself. You deserve respect. You deserve to be treated like a human being -- nothing less.
I talked to my oncologist today. She explained the cancer to me in a way I hadn't heard before. She said its almost like a car's computer. She said if the car's computer is malfunctioning, it might set off the oil gauge or the battery gauge in the car or any other gauge. It doesn't … Continue reading I am an Autobot.
Hello people!It's been a hectic few days. I worked most of Friday, and my last two appointments were for Nay Nay & Lee Lee, so after we finished they treated me to dinner at Cherry Blossom Noodle Cafe. I was looking forward to our dinner all week because I am currently obsessed with their Chicken … Continue reading Plans & Pneumonia
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I'm baaaaack. I was able to pick up my laptop from the Apple Store today, and I couldn't be more excited! I can now get back to regular writing, which is perfect because writing more regularly is part of my new year resolutions for 2017, as well as part of my agreement to Rara helping … Continue reading New Year, New Goals
This last Saturday night my honey (Deven, known to me as Mosha or Honey, and to others by his stage name Dnoch) had a performance at an event called Exile, sponsored by Spittaz For'Em from Las Vegas. The event was scheduled to start at 6:30pm, which was perfect timing since on Saturdays I try to … Continue reading Spittaz For’Em Presents: Exile
It's been about two, almost three months, since I've written anything of substance. I've made small updates to my personal journal, but not much else. As much as I want to blame this on my currently broken Macbook, I can't put all the responsibility on that fact. That is largely the reason why I haven't … Continue reading An Overdue Update
Today Andrew and I went on an adventure to partake in the festivities at the annual Festival of the Arts put on by the Herberger Theater. There was live music, performances, children's activities and food/shopping -- oh, and of course, lots of art!Our first stop was to the food court area where the live music … Continue reading Herberger Theater Festival of the Arts
Well, it has been one heck of a day. Ups and downs for sure… I had an appointment this afternoon to do some follow-up testing. (I completed a similar set of tests at the onset of diagnosis.) The tests were extensive and focused on various brain functions. I’ll tackle each area one at a time. … Continue reading I’m Angry at Lyle
Man! It's been one heck of a day, and I know the next three days will be pretty busy, too. Last night mom and I spent time together talking and watching our favorite cooking shows (Chopped, Beat Bobby Flay & Halloween Wars). We ended up staying up until 3am before we decided we should head … Continue reading 10.29.16 Recap
It was a pretty lazy, uneventful day for me. I've been dealing with a horrible headache since Sunday. Honestly, it's rather frustrating that no matter what I do or what remedies or medications I try, the pain doesn't ease up. I've take Tylenol, ibuprofen, Excedrin, and the Vicodin I was prescribed. I've slept, made sure … Continue reading The Scars of Battle
I talked to the neurooncologist today. She said that my head pains are normal because of the pressure that the tumor is creating. She had her assistant email me a list of questions that I should fill out whenever I have the head pains, almost like a headache log for us to go over when … Continue reading Icepick Stabbing Pains
I don't feel like a good person. I wanted to open with that because once the truth is stated, there's nothing left to hide. I could have done so much more with my life up to this point. I didn't. I'm selfish. I always have been. Some regrets we carry until the day we die. … Continue reading Just thoughts.
Having cancer is one of those things that you improvise, sort of like playing a made up game where you’re making up the rules as you go along. Living with cancer is not one of those games that comes with a 5-page booklet full of step-by-step instructions. While there’s an industry worth billions of nothing … Continue reading Learning As You Go
I can't sleep. It's not one of my better moments. I keep thinking about how it is already week four into chemo and how fast time is going...It just reminds me that life is fleeting, and I feel like I'm quickly approaching this deadline of life that I've been handed, this death sentence, and I … Continue reading Mortality.
Today is the start of my fourth week of chemo, and sometimes it's still surreal that I have brain cancer. It just doesn't seem real. In so many ways I feel the same as always, almost like nothing is different except for the fact that I get sick a lot, have lost some hair and … Continue reading The Battle I Didn’t Choose
A/N: I decided yesterday that I need to write more. Not just more, but daily. I know that this is something that I've told myself to do plenty of times, and clearly, I have never stuck to those goals long-term. So what makes this day any different? Honestly, I don’t even know if I have … Continue reading My 500 Words — Day One
Words cannot express how grateful I am for my family. Throughout this trial in my life, they have come through for me like I never could have imagined they would. Today, I was supposed to be in NM with my nephew @ben.morfin watching him race in the Junior Olympics. I couldn't be there because of … Continue reading My favorite athlete.
"I want daddy, I want daddy, I want daddy!" was all 15 year old Cameron Sterling could say between sobs as his mother, Quinyetta McMillon, addressed the media: "The individuals involved in his murder took away a man with children who depended on their daddy on a daily basis." (Read the story here.) There are … Continue reading “I want daddy.”
I want to talk about politics. I know I've had difficult conversation about racism, including with friends and family whom I greatly respect, but who don't necessarily see eye to eye with me on this. I know this Democratic presidential primary has been more emotionally-charged than any recent ones I remember. I know Clinton supporters … Continue reading Politics.
I have come up with an idea that I think will yield interesting results. So, my birthday is approaching quickly and inevitably, I know that people will ask what I want. Well, I’ve decided that I would like my friends and family to buy me a copy of their favorite book, and if they choose, … Continue reading An experiment.
I don't know how much good an awareness profile pic does, but it's something. The Syrian government is carrying out attacks against Aleppo that are on par with the bombing of Gaza or the shelling of Sarajevo. They are war crimes and almost certainly crimes against humanity. I honestly don't know what the action should … Continue reading Aleppols Burning
It's been 5 years since my Tata Chon passed away. Well technically it was 5 years to the day on March 8th, three days ago. However, I was reminded of the anniversary when I logged into Facebook this morning, and an old post from today in 2011 appeared, one where I provided a link for … Continue reading In memorium
It's funny, we came to the cabin so I could rest, and I still was wide awake in the middle of the night and up early. There is a difference though; I feel more rested than I do at home. It's still early, and I don't have to be up for a few more hours … Continue reading Early morning thoughts
Man, what a hectic day. Fridays are the one day when I don’t have to be in the office until 2pm. Normally I have my women’s get- togethers, but a few weeks ago there were two weeks in a row when none of the women showed up, so I decided to cancel it until further … Continue reading TGIF
Well, the 21-day challenge came to an end with the setting of the sun yesterday. It went by surprisingly fast, and I must say that I do feel a sense of accomplishment knowing that not once did I cheat and give in to drinking soda or logging onto Facebook. I didn't miss Facebook at all. … Continue reading The end of our family challenge
Tonight my uncle Bob, my dad's eldest brother, passed away. I called and spoke to my pops, and he was so broken on the phone. It was hard to hear his voice cracking, to hear him at a loss for words…I kept trying to reassure him that with time, it won't hurt so much, and … Continue reading My heart breaks for you.
So my family and I have decided to do a 21-day challenge together, where we each give up something(s) and replace them with something healthier, and set a goal for what we would like to accomplish by completing this challenge. Today was our first day. For my personal challenge, I decided to give up soda, … Continue reading 21-Day Challenge
Well, this is mg first entry for this new year. I had meant to write sooner than now, but it's been a busy 7 days, so it didn't happen. I took today off work to rest and to get some work done around the house. I started going into the office on Monday, prepping everything … Continue reading Goals.
It's been a hectic day already, and it's only lunchtime. I woke up early, around 9:30am, early considering the fact that I have absolutely nothing to do today. I had two strange dreams, both dealing with church, which was new and weird. I told Mosha about them, and he also thought they were intriguingly odd. … Continue reading Manic Monday
I guess this is how Christmas will end, with me sleeping alone downstairs and you upstairs, stewing over something that you think is my fault, when it's completely out of my control. I wish that when it came to your music, you would realize that all I ever try to do is help you. Why … Continue reading Christmas Doesn’t Always Equate to Cheer
You support justice because it is a fundamental right, because perpetuating injustice is intrinsically wrong, no matter who the beneficiary or the victim is. That's just a basic ethical duty. The oppressed do not "earn" justice by mounting a sufficiently effective campaign, by asking in an appropriately polite way, by being intrinsically better people, by … Continue reading Justice
Sometimes, I just don't understand you. I don't know why God made you the way you are, I don't get your thought process, and I don't see how you don't comprehend what I'm saying to you. It doesn't seem serious on the surface, but I know it is. I also know that this will resolve itself, likely … Continue reading Bewilderment.
So it's really late, and I’m tired. I have a long day tomorrow; it's the day that I spend most of it at the Never Again Foundation for my internship, then I have to go straight from there to my 2-hour Bar Strategies & Skills class. However, I wanted to get this off my mind. … Continue reading Eyes on the Prize
I went on a wild hunt for my collection of stamps and my embossing heat tool, which led to me pulling out all of the Christmas decorations and putting them up. I'm missing some...particularly a set of moose stuffed animals that I put out on my entertainment center. (My mom and pops gave them to … Continue reading Progression.
My pops sent me this picture today via email. I think that it's perfect for me because I tend to "do" a lot of things without the "before" part (namely #2). I tend to say a whole lot before my mind has completely processed what's coming out of my mouth. I know a lot … Continue reading Before.
I spent all morning long looking for my medical insurance card. I still can’t seem to find it (either of the two copies I had), and my replacement cards still hasn’t arrived, even thought it’s been weeks since I ordered it. Poor Dev stayed home later than usual to help me scourge the house for … Continue reading